This morning as we walked to School I saw this intricate and tiny toadstool glistening in the grass. From above it resembled a daisy. Last week I acquired an iphone and it holds great appeal in giving me ability to capture simple snapshots of everyday life in that instant. We were looking at it and I said 'Oh I'm going to take a photo of that!' We were all crouched down admiring it and I was trying to get a good angle.
In that moment an older, high school girl rounded the corner and I was aware she stopped behind us and took her earphones out. I felt self conscious and didn't acknowledge her. She said 'What have you found?'
'Just a toadstool' I replied, with a disappointed tone that conveyed it clearly was not something she would find interesting. I didn't make eye contact, expecting her to walk on.
She came around from behind me to the open side and took a closer look, then moved away, continuing on her way to School with out another word between us.
Hmmm. So on the way home alone I was wondering why I didn't exclaim "Its a toadstool!" conveying the actual feeling I had of wonder at the amazing open structure of this tiny fungus.
I concluded that I was filtering the experience through what I expected the other persons perception to be. I didn't expect she would find it remotely interesting and so I acted like it wasn't. I'm a bit sad in hindsight that I did this in front of my Kids. I wonder how often I do it in everyday life that I am unaware of?